Flashbacks

And just when I think that maybe, someday, I'll feel whole again, you show up. You refuse to leave. The sight of you disgusts me. All the memories, fake as they were, come rushing back. I feel like I've been kicked in the stomach. I can't breathe, I can't see, I can't feel. My mind goes blank as I watch your mouth move. Knowing that everything that comes out of it is as much of a lie as our marriage was. Why can't you just leave me alone? Why do you have to keep pushing me down. I take one step forward just to have you push me two steps back. I'll never be free of you. There's really only one way out.